11 May 2013 @ 02:16 am
{[personal profile] perkynipples} You don't understand. I NEED pie.  
Castiel had had ample time to stew in the juices of his misdeeds long before he returned to the bunker, his groceries in hand. When Dean was not there he grew agitated. When a full day came and went without word from either of the Winchesters he grew worried.

Considering the present climate of chaos in their lives any number of unsavory scenarios had occurred to Castiel as possibilities for their absence - but Dean has forbidden Castiel to go to him, so he tries to comply with Dean's wishes for once and stays. That doesn't mean it's easy. It doesn't mean the combination of his own intense guilt, his feeling of helplessness, and general ill-ease about Castiel's fight with Dean has made it easy. By the time he hears the impala pull up outside he's worked himself back into irritation again, almost anger, and so when Sam and Dean finally make their way in the door the first thing that comes out of Castiel's mouth is a very gruff and confrontational "Where were you?"
 
 
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samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 12:45 am (UTC)

No, no Sam did not sleep. Not that he really expected to. He's pointedly not thinking about Sarah right now because if he thinks about Sarah he's going to lose all of his resolve and then her death will be for basically nothing. So instead he's doing what comes easiest to him and that's worry about Dean and his angel.

Which had turned out to be a mistake, but seeing as he couldn't make any headway with one idiot he thinks he'll try the other.

"What's going on with you and Cas?" He ignores Dean's question outright, and goes straight for what's bugging him. No sense dancing around the issue or building up to it. Dean won't be any more excited to talk about it.

Dean Winchester: Can you believe this douche?[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 12:47 am (UTC)
Dean doesn't miss the way Sam lingers in the doorway, watches him so intently. He looks like shit, still, but it could be worse. He could be passed out - Dean'll take this. At least, all the way up until that question gets asked, and Dean shuts down, just like that, face blank.

"We're arguin'. People do that. We're gonna figure it out in the morning after some sleep."

Dean drags the covers up, just so he has something to touch, something to do with his hands.
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 12:54 am (UTC)

Yep, closed down immediately, just about what Sam had expected. He comes in the room and takes a seat on the chair facing Dean's bed - the one on the blank side of the room that Sam has never and will never comment on. It's not his business. What is his business is what's happened while Dean was sulking.

"You sure about that? I mean I've had my share of arguments over the years but usually they don't end in bondage."

Dean Winchester: No dude- just no.[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 12:57 am (UTC)
Dean stares him down for a moment, like he's not quite sure if they're really gonna have this conversation, and then Sam sits, and goddamnit. "Bond-- dude, no."

No one is in fucking bondage, okay, he doesn't know what you're talking about.
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 01:01 am (UTC)

"At least I think that's what they usually call it when someone demands to be chained in a dungeon. If you have a better word for it I am all ears." And yeah it's ridiculous the way he is going about telling Dean this, but the whole fucking situation is so god damn ridiculous that Sam just doesn't have any proper means of expressing how irritated he is with both of them that they let it escalate to this level of stupidity. And Cas, the moron, had just been so bloody earnest and insistent that Sam had decided that it wasn't his angel, it wasn't his problem. He'd do what he wanted and then Dean could deal with it however he chose.

Dean Winchester: :([personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 01:03 am (UTC)
What the hell is he even talking about. Dean stares at him like he's speaking another language, and squints a little, glancing from him to the clock - it's ass o'clock in the morning, what the fuck is he even going on about? "No one demanded to be chained in th--"

Oh.

Oh.

Realization swims over his face, and something a little like rage. "Tell me he didn't."
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 01:26 am (UTC)

"He said he didn't know any other way to ensure that he couldn't be taken by the angels and couldn't fall back on any bad programming now that he's lost the angel tablet and leave and then demanded I lock him in the dungeon. Apparently those chains are angel-proof as well. I told him no, of course but then he started to get worked up so I figured it was better to just give him what he wanted."

Actually, Sam feels a little bit weird about this, like he's tattling on dad to mom or something - and he really, really doesn't want to examine how accurate that is.

Dean Winchester: No dude- just no.[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 01:30 am (UTC)
Of course he did. Of course he did. Dean is so pissed that he could spit, and he rolls out of bed in an unsteady rush, dragging sweatpants on.

"You've gotta be kidding me," he mutters, and trusts Sam to follow as he starts off out of the room, only to stop. "Where are the keys to the cuffs?"
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 01:42 am (UTC)

Of course his brother's going to fly off the handle, because there's obviously no way that either of these idiots are going to respond calmly or rationally to one another. Sometimes he wishes they'd just get it over with. Bitch face firmly in place now, Sam crosses his arms.

"Look, Dean, obviously he's being an idiot about this but seriously? I know what he's put you through, god knows I know. But I also know that it's Cas and that he loves you, and that when you're afraid of losing something you act like a complete bastard - which in case you missed it, is what you're doing. So go down there, calmly, unchain him and work this out like adults not ... emotionally stunted teenagers on a daytime soap."

Dean Winchester: Just cause I'm listening doesn't mean I[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 01:45 am (UTC)
Dean would respond that this is totally not flying off the handle, okay, this is being pissed at someone being fucking melodramatic, and okay, maybe it's a little bit flying off the handle, but only barely.

"A complete ba-- hey, screw you, okay, I'm not the one being a melodramatic sonovabitch and asking you to chain me up in the sex dungeon, okay."

And Sam's right, and that just stings him even more, as Dean stops outside the hall that leads to the room with the files and the dungeon. "Did you, I dunno, try telling him he's being a fucking moron and doesn't need chained?"
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 01:59 am (UTC)

Sex dungeon? Sam isn't even going to touch that one with a ten foot pole. Nope. He sighs and stops behind his brother, fishing out the keys from his pocket.

"No, Dean. I just merrily agreed to lock him up for you in chains in our 'sex dungeon'. Of course I told him that." Okay, so maybe he was going to go there a little, but only in hopes of pointing out to Dean what he just said in case he missed in, and in hopes that he will get a damn clue already. He hands over the keys.

"I know it's hard for you to forgive when the people you care about mess up big, but you've gotta remember that I have the certainty of knowing you're still my brother when I mess up. Cas still looks at you like he can't believe you're real. His concept of family isn't the same as ours is, he's never had a friend before, and he's never had -" too much. "Well, you get the idea. Cut him a few breaks if he acts like he's fifteen and going through his first break up. What he's doing is obnoxious, and kind of stupid, but you can't say he's not trying."

Dean Winchester: PLAAAAAID[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 02:01 am (UTC)
Sam's right.

He hates those words, just about as much as he hates some other ones like, out of beer and parallel parking, because they're all bullshit. Sam's right has to be the one he hates most right now, though.

"I don't know what the hell he wants from me, Sam," Dean says finally, resignedly, and closes his eyes, because he's so, so fucking tired.
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 02:03 am (UTC)

"Seriously?" Sam blurts it out without asking because damn it, Dean. It's one thing to be oblivious to your own emotional melodrama, but surely he should know that - ugh no he shouldn't it's Dean.

"Maybe this is going out on a limb here, but ... you know you could always just ask him."

Dean Winchester: Do you even listen to yourself?[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 03:49 am (UTC)
"Yeah, seriously, don't be a dick."

Dean crosses his arms, stares him down and doesn't say anything for the longest time, too busy being pissed and cranky and goddamnit, no, he really doesn't want to have this talk.

"I don't even think Cas knows what he wants half the time."
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 03:59 am (UTC)

He's not trying to be cruel, really he's not, he just ... how can Dean not know? He sighs exhausted and runs a hand through his long hair, scratching his scalp.

"Well, if he doesn't know then you and he are the only ones that don't." He shakes his head and just ... it's his instinct to want to look after Dean, and try and help him through his emotional ... whatever - but at the same time it's not really his place to spell this shit out for Dean. "He wants the same thing you do."

Dean Winchester: No dude- just no.[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 05:14 am (UTC)
God, he really wants to take a pair of shears to that, really, really bad. Dean gives it a look and then shakes his head.

"...What the hell are you even-- dude, go to bed, okay, you're clearly tired."

And that's easier than thinking about what Sam means, about what he's implying, because he really doesn't want to look that far into things.
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 05:26 am (UTC)

He can't force his brother to do anything about it if he insists on being stubborn, but he's done what he can short of locking them in their together, which as tempting as it is would probably turn out to be a bad idea in the long run.

"Whatever you say, Dean. Look, you don't have to figure it out with me. It's him you've got to talk to. Just don't be a stubborn ass." He claps his brother once on the arm, gives him a supportive smile and then steps back.

"I'll be in my room."

Dean Winchester[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 05:41 am (UTC)
He is not going to have this conversation, he's going to get Sam tucked back into bed, and then he's going to drag Castiel out of the fucking sex dungeon that isn't a sex dungeon, and he's going to drag all of them together so he can keep a fucking eye on them.

"Stay put," Dean mutters, and works on getting Sam there, holding a hand at his shoulder until he's sure he's okay. "I'll figure this shit out."
samzilla[personal profile] samzilla on May 12th, 2013 05:49 am (UTC)

Sam feels like crap, but he doesn't need to be fussed over the way that Dean wants to. He's half convinced that Dean's doing it at least in part to avoid dealing with his own shit. "I'm fine Dean. I can make it to my room by myself. Go deal with your angel."

He brushes him off, gently but firmly and then heads back the way they came out of sight.

Dean Winchester: Still not sure if want.[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 06:08 am (UTC)
No, he would never dodge responsibility like that. Nope. Not at all. Why would you ever think that. "He's not my--" Dean snaps it and gets as far as the door before he finds himself with nothing to do because Sam's safe and he's out of excuses

Dean huffs, and starts toward the stupid fucking not-a-sex-dungeon that is totally a sex dungeon, and stands in the doorway.

"What the hell, Cas."
castiel[personal profile] principatus on May 12th, 2013 06:11 am (UTC)
It's not like Castiel is an idiot. He knows Dean isn't going to like this, but until he can think of a more permanent solution it's the best thing he's got. He looks up from where he is sitting quietly against the wall with a book in his hands and sighs, setting it aside. "Hello, Dean. I see Sam has explained things."
Dean Winchester[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 06:18 am (UTC)
Oh, really. Really, with the books and the nonchalance, and the -- Dean makes a noise in the back of his throat, and stares. He's got to be fucking with him. Seriously.

"Gimme your hands."
castiel[personal profile] principatus on May 12th, 2013 06:42 am (UTC)

"Dean," his voice sounds exhausted, as if Dean is missing a very obvious point. "I'm not suggesting this as a permanent solution. You said that I can't guarantee that I will stay, this way I can. I can't fall back on Naomi's programming and neither can she take me. I am doing this willingly, I want to be here. This is where I want to be."

Dean Winchester[personal profile] perkynipples on May 12th, 2013 06:46 am (UTC)
"When you go dramatic, you go big or go home, huh."

Dean reaches into his pocket to grab the lockpick kit, and crouches next to him. He gets the sentiment behind it, but he's not -- no. They're not doing it this way, Dean just is not going to deal with this level of bullshit tonight. He sets in on the locks, face pinched, sour, lips pressed into a thin line.
castiel[personal profile] principatus on May 12th, 2013 06:56 am (UTC)

He thinks about arguing and thinks about earlier and then the fight goes out of him. His stomach twists unhappily and gives his wrists over but turns his eyes away from Dean to look past him at the wall opposite. "You won't even let me try, will you?" He doesn't mean it to come out as sulky as it does but really Castiel is at the end of his patience. He can't take another year of this, he feels like he can't take another day.

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