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castiel ([personal profile] holyspirit) wrote in [community profile] curseboxes 2013-04-29 11:02 pm (UTC)

Cas nods, lets his thumb drag itself down Dean's face. He's had so long to think about that, how he just left. In retrospect he realises he might never have seen Dean again and it's absolutely terrifying to him. What's worse is what it must have felt like to Dean for whom the time would have passed with a human's perception. It's surprising that Dean doesn't respond to him as if he is a stranger.

"Because I had never meant to stay away so long, because leaving you was a mistake, because I meant to respond. Everything you said that day, I have thought about it over and over again for decades and I feel the same way now that I did then: everything you said, I feel it too. I know I left and that I haven't been here. When you died and I lost you, I never hated myself more for anything than not staying that day and telling you that what you said to me was important. That it was you that broke through the conditioning Naomi had me under. I want you to know those things, and I want you to know that I am so sorry. You deserve so much more than I have offered you."


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