Castiel looks up at Tessa then. This is not a conversation he wants an audience for. The reaper, who has always been much more empathetic than Castiel would have imagine reapers could be, takes a step back and drops her hands from Dean's shoulders. "I'm needed elsewhere, if you're alright Dean. If you need me, you know how to call me."

It's obvious she's hesitant to go, but she does and Castiel is grateful for that. Things with Dean have always been too intense, too close to something neither one of them has known how to address or wanted to for all it was frightening. This distance is entirely unacceptable and Castiel has felt the loss every day that Dean hasn't been beside him.

"I lost you. I watched you go and there was nothing I could do to bring you back. I tried. Over, and over again I tried."