"I didn't do it for him, Dean. I did it because it needed to be done. I did
it for you, I did it for your race. I did it to atone for the terrible
things I've done. Restoring peace and order in heaven, preventing the
angels from doing the kinds of things they've done for over a century now?
Back when Michael was still running things? They are a danger to everyone
human, demon, and most especially themselves."
He hates that he's still disappointing Dean with new things. There never
seems to be an end to it and all the time he has spent longing to see Dean
again only makes the knowledge that once again Dean has found fault in
him devastating. He closes his eyes.
"I tried saying no once. Taking it back. I stopped, having lost the will do
do anything but find you and bring you back. And then Naomi and
Crowley joined forces and it was Sam who convinced me that I had had a job
to do. That you wouldn't want me to let innocent people die because I was
too caught up in grief and obsession to do anything but try and find you.
We didn't know you were Death then. We didn't know what had become of you.
It seemed the best way to save you was to finish the jobs we'd set out to
do with the tablets."
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"I didn't do it for him, Dean. I did it because it needed to be done. I did it for you, I did it for your race. I did it to atone for the terrible things I've done. Restoring peace and order in heaven, preventing the angels from doing the kinds of things they've done for over a century now? Back when Michael was still running things? They are a danger to everyone human, demon, and most especially themselves."
He hates that he's still disappointing Dean with new things. There never seems to be an end to it and all the time he has spent longing to see Dean again only makes the knowledge that once again Dean has found fault in him devastating. He closes his eyes.
"I tried saying no once. Taking it back. I stopped, having lost the will do do anything but find you and bring you back. And then Naomi and Crowley joined forces and it was Sam who convinced me that I had had a job to do. That you wouldn't want me to let innocent people die because I was too caught up in grief and obsession to do anything but try and find you. We didn't know you were Death then. We didn't know what had become of you. It seemed the best way to save you was to finish the jobs we'd set out to do with the tablets."